Coming to a Close...

2013 is winding down so it's time to reflect on this past year.  What a year!  In some regards it seems like it flew by, but with the seasons of change coming and going it's all in good timing.  I'm not even sure I can sum up this year...it's been a year full of new adventures, experiences, sadness and some disappointments...as all years seem to encompass.  A year that started off in a new job (day job) and then the drive and focus to get my first book edited and published!  As you're read throughout my publishing process, I took it one step at a time...one deadline at a time...and then, it was done!  I had MY book in my hands!!  Holy cow! 

And then that started another new adventure, basically starting my own little business of selling my book!  The promotions, magazine articles, blog interviews and all of the book signings were memorable and exciting new experiences for me.  And, to kick off my book signings in my home town in Iowa was amazing, humbling and simply wonderful...a perfect and surreal beginning as an author!

The year was full of ups and downs, strengthening existing relationships and creating new ones.  Lifting up family members in times of grief and struggle, and coming together to support one another as only families can do!  Open to new opportunities that the book presented and enjoying all the feedback and stories from complete strangers about their adoption stories and how they've enjoyed reading my book!  Now to get that excitement about my book passed on to others...word of mouth to promote more people reading my book!

The new year is right around the corner and another year full of possibilities awaits us all!  New dreams, new adventures, new goals, new outlooks....dreams fulfilled, amazing new memories made, goals accomplished and changing our lives for the better all awaits us!  I'm excited about the continuing opportunities promoting and sharing my book presents and the new people I'll encounter over the course of more book signings and interviews.  And who knows what else this new year will hold...not only for me, but for you, too!  Thank you for continuing to follow my story through this blog and I wish you a peaceful and joyful new year!!  May you have numerous blessings in the coming year and share your gifts with those around you!!!  Happy 2014!!!

Merry Christmas to All!

Merry Christmas to All...and to all a Good Night!!

Wishing you a Very Merry Christmas!

As Christmas Day approaches, I know it's been a hectic time of year for everyone, but the day is almost here and the true reason for the season will be remembered!  So, wherever you are around the world I hope your celebrations, family traditions and new holiday memories are blessed with joy, happiness and peace!

Thanks for being part of my 2013!!  Merry Christmas to you and your family!!!

Finding Peace and Joy

As Christmas approaches and the end of another year is upon us, it's time for new memories, remembrances of holidays past and reflections of the year coming to a close.  What surprises happened this year?  What tragedies or challenges have you had to overcome?  What personal growth have you made this year?  And, what new goals do you have for yourself in the coming year? 

As I hope for some quiet, reflective time of my own in the next few days to ponder all those questions, I hope I have answers to them.  It has been a fulfilling year in the completion and publication of my first book!  What an amazing accomplishment!  I'm very proud of that.  But, it always seems as if its the same things in life that mean the most.  So, although the book has been a labor of love over the past couple years to get it published it's the everyday random acts of kindness by strangers or thoughtful gestures from a friend or family member that I'll remember most.  However, I must say that as I continue to get feedback about my book by complete strangers I'm humbled and grateful for the blessing to touch someone else by my story.  That's why I worked so hard to publish it...to impact someone else's life, to make a small difference, to shed some light!

So, as this year comes to a close I hope you have fond memories of this year, see how much you've grown and continue to have hope for a better tomorrow!  Blessings to you this week!

Tidings of Good Cheer!

I hope your holiday season is bringing you and your family good tidings of Christmas cheer!  There's always so much going on at this time of year, so I hope you're taking it all in and enjoying every minute of it!  It's a magical time of year!

This past week, I was in New York City on a work trip.  I've been to the Big Apple many times over the years, but this is the first time I've been there during the holidays.  There are a lot of iconic places I've seen on TV over the years, like the tree at Rockefeller Center or the angels leading up to it (I'm remembering Home Alone 2), Macy's or the artistic window decorations at the high end retailers.  So, it was fun to get to see it all in person this year!  It was all very festive and beautiful as snow fell down hard on the first full day I was there.  It didn't stick, but it was pretty to watch falling down all day from the 29th floor of our office building.  And, I finally got to see the Radio City Music Hall Rockettes perform from 6 rows back!  Fun show that makes an ex-dancer want to get her dance shoes back on!

Thankfully there were no real delays going or coming at the airport, which was a concern especially this time of year.  But, since I had been stuck in my house for 4 days due to a massive ice storm in my local area, my first trip out of my house was to slowly make my way to the airport.  I'm thankful for safe travels and a fun trip during this hectic holiday season!

So, whatever new adventures, surprises, traditions you and your family may be experiencing this holiday season....I hope you are safe, healthy and filled with the true spirit of this wonderful time of year!!  Blessings to you during this last full week before Christmas!

Iced In

It's day 3 of being iced in.  The freezing rain and sleet came on Thursday and ever since then it's been one thick sheet of ice with another glaze of ice overnight.  The temperatures are only suppose to rise above 32 degrees for a couple hours today, but then go below freezing again until probably Tuesday or Wednesday.  Yikes!  Three days is probably my limit, so come tomorrow I'll by itching to get out again.  However, I have gotten a lot of work done around the house. 

Unfortunately I'm suppose to travel for work tomorrow, too.  I'm not sure that's going to happen with all the flight cancellations, traveling to the airport and the weather system that hit us is going to hit the northeast today.  I know most northerners (in the U.S. and those internationally who live in very cold countries) are probably laughing at us southerners who become immobile when it comes to cold temperatures and ice.  We pretty much shut down, hunker in and cook! 

I was supposed to have my latest book signing yesterday, but we had already rescheduled it due to other circumstances even before our "great ice in".  So, no more book signings until January.  (January 25th - check out my web site for more details at www.kimfenneman.com)  I'm hoping to spend the next several weeks ramping up my marketing plan and getting ready to do a full blown launch and marketing campaign that will kick off in January.  Going to start the new year off with a full-fledged marketing attack!  (Or at least that's the plan)  So, maybe with a few more days of being iced in I can make some headway on my marketing plan....just trying to stay productive!  Blessings for this coming week...and hopefully a thaw out!

Cherish the Season

It's Christmastime!  So many traditions and meanings for this season, but there's one meaning that should reign over all others...the gift of life!  It's simple yet so profound at the same time if you truly stop and think about it.  Yes, we've all heard "every day is a gift" or "don't take life for granted", but at this time of year it gets buried underneath the decorating, shopping, baking, carols, school plays, holiday parties, etc.  But, what is that one meaning of Christmas for you? 

Yesterday, I was reminded of how short life truly is and how precious each moment we are allowed to grace this earth is...by the death of my manager's mom (granted, she was 80 and lived a full life, but cancer has claimed another life) and by a sudden health scare of a close family member.  You just never know.  You might see it coming from a relentless disease or it could just happen from a tragic accident.  Life is short.  It's worth repeating especially during this time of year. 

Although sadly, many people are engulfed in grief during this time of year, as well, after losing a loved one either recently or even if years have passed.  The holidays evoke a lot of emotions because they are mostly associated with our childhoods, joy, happiness, wonder and the goodness of humankind...if only for the holiday season.  Holidays can be hard for a lot of people for a lot of different reasons.  So, no matter what Christmas and this time of the year means to you...I hope you find some peace and comfort in knowing you are not alone, you are strong enough to overcome any challenge that comes you way and there is a shining light that will lead the way.  So, prayers for each one of you who follow and read my blog that you cherish that one special meaning of Christmas this holiday season.  Blessings to you today and everyday!

The Holiday Season is Upon Us!

Wow, it's December already and the holiday season is fast and furious (RIP Paul Walker) even before it was Thanksgiving it seems!  But, now we're into December so the houses that had their X-mas lights on several weeks before Thanksgiving...ok, it's now acceptable.  I just finished all my decorating today!  It usually takes me at least 2 days to get the house decorated and the tree up.  And, I must say...I love my tree this year (tried the mesh ribbon in white and purple this year, which I love but it took me an hour just to get the ribbon up!) 

Trying to get SO much done during my holiday break before going back to work tomorrow and my body has paid the price.  It is aching all over the place!  To add to my physical exhaustion and pain, I trimmed all my bushes and cleaned up/weeded the front of my house today, too.  After a couple days of non-stop shopping (yes, starting Thanksgiving night), decorating and just normal household chores I seriously need another couple days to recover.  I can't believe the holiday break is over already!  I was busy every day and am wondering if I'll ever get a break...just to rest, recover and recharge.  Maybe the end of the year will bring some down time my way.  Lets hope!

But, in the holiday spirit of things...I must say it's always a fun time of year and I'm excited about all the holiday festivities that will occur between now and the end of the year.  And honestly, I'm pretty much done with all my shopping, X-mas cards have been mailed and the house is brimming with holiday cheer, so now I can really just enjoy the season!  I hope you enjoy this joyful time of year, no matter where you live, and really celebrate the meaning of the season!  Blessings to you this week!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving (to all those in the United States)!!  Enjoy time with your family and friends...watching the parades and football, eating and sharing new memories.  Have a blessed day and thank you for following my story through this blog!

To Divulge or Not To Divulge....

Our first wintry storm of the year...or so they said.  It's been cold, a few sprinkles, but no sleet, freezing rain or ice that had been forecasted.  So, this morning the decision to take my oldest nephew on his day-long outing/sleepover that I've promised him since his birthday in early October was in jeopardy.  But, after seeing the rain was going to hold off most of the day I decided it was a go!  

He almost bolted for my car as I arrived at his house to pick him up this morning.  He was definitely ready to go!  First, lunch...then, the Perot Museum of Nature and Science.  He loved it!  He enjoyed the energy exhibit, the mineral exhibit and experiencing an actual earthquake simulation.  He was a bundle of energy never taking a breath for non-stop conversation all day!  

On the way back home, we stopped at Wal-Mart so we could purchase food to donate to my church's food pantry.  I told my nephew to bring $2 with him.  He had no idea what it was for.  I explained to him what we were doing, why we were doing it and why it was important to give back.  He had no objections.  He totally understood and enjoyed trying to find as much food as possible for our budget (which was more than the $2 he brought).  I think it was a great lesson for him and I'm happy he was so enthused to participate!  Thankful for our day today, but especially for that moment.

I also mentioned to him that Mom and I had done a book signing at my church the previous Sunday.  I was about to mention to him the family that we had met who had adopted 2 children from South Korea, but in mid-sentence I stopped myself.  He doesn't know I'm adopted.  He doesn't even know what adoption is.  Was this the time to tell him?  I decided it wasn't.  He's still young, innocent and just sees me as his fun, cool aunt.  I think that's enough for now.  Life and all the social dramas that occur will come soon enough, but for now I just want him to be a kid.  To enjoy life as it is...simple, carefree and full of wonder!

As the day winds down, I'm pretty sure he hasn't yet...so, fun activities are still in order!  However, he did tell me he'd rather watch HGTV than the Wizard of Oz that is on tonight.  What?!  That's a classic!  Ohhh the generations, how they change!

Church Book Signing

This past Sunday I did a book signing at my church...4 hours, 5 services!  Thankfully my mom was there to help me!  It honestly didn't feel like 4 hours, though, because there was a steady stream of people passing by showing their gratitude that I had come to sell my book there.  We set up in front of the gift/book store and enjoyed talking to those who bought my book and even those who came by just to inquire about it.  Ironically (a testament to why I named my blog "Ironies of an All-American Life as a Korean Adoptee"), the only actual adopted children I met had been adopted from South Korea.  There were several individuals who bought a book who had relatives or knew someone who had adopted, but the one family we actually met had adopted from South Korea.  Go figure!  A 10 year old boy and a 9 year old girl...both very sweet, well-mannered and polite.  It was fun to talk to them and tell them about my book.

That book signing was exactly what I needed after the last two disappointments.  Not only did I sell more books than the last two (albeit that wouldn't have been hard), the environment was loving, kind and full of support.  I'm very grateful for the reassurance boost!

In a previous post, I mentioned an older Korean couple that attend one of the services I usually attend who sit down the pew from me.  We've always said "hi" to one another and the women did ask me once if I was Korean, but that's been the extent of our conversation.  I've always wondered how and when they started attending my church because I've really only known older Koreans to be strictly traditional in their customs and religion.  Meaning, they would only attend Korean churches and I know there are several in the metroplex.  So, it's always been a little perplexing to me to see them there almost every Sunday.  They came by our table on Sunday and she immediately came up to talk to us.  Surprised that it was "me" sitting there because she had seen the promotions of my book signing in the newsletter and bulletins, but didn't realize it was the Korean girl who always sat on the same pew as them.  And of course, she was interested in meeting my mom.  As she stood at the table buying a book and chatting with us her husband stood in the background.  He did not come up to talk to us, but I did nod my head at him.  That's the traditional culture I've become accustomed to.  It was definitely an interesting situation and who knows what they'll think of my book, but I hope they share their feedback with me after they finish reading it.  I am absolutely curious and interested in their thoughts and perceptions of Korean adoptees.  It's truly the unknown for me...understanding and getting feedback from non-adopted Koreans on what they think of adoption, Korean adoptees, and how the culture views it now. 

So, although part of my intent for writing my book was to educate non-adoptees on what it's like to be adopted I look forward to being educated on what non-adopted Koreans think of Korean adoptees.  So, please share your thoughts (to anyone who has purchased and read my book) because I would love to hear from you!  Blessings to you this week!

Thankful for...

During this month of "thanks" it's a great reminder of those things we often take for granted...like our health!  But, taking a small moment each day to find gratitude and thanksgiving should be a year-long habit not just during the month of November (for those in the U.S. where the Thanksgiving holiday is in November).  More often than not when I say my prayers each night they ARE filled with all those things I was thankful for that day, so I've definitely tried to make it a habit.  And, it's a good habit!  To look at the good (no matter how big or small) in each day should invade more of our thoughts than what we don't have/what we should be doing/what we forgot to do/how we're not enough/etc.  It's those realities of everyday life that we all focus on constantly.  It's become our way of life.  It's normal.  But, we're not nurturing ourselves with those continuous thoughts.  We're not lifting ourselves up and looking toward the light each and every day.  It's hard, don't get me wrong, but it's that small paradigm shift that we all need to just bring a little more light into our lives, to lighten the load of everyday stresses, to give ourselves permission to make mistakes, to not be perfect.

We need to give ourselves the chance to let our LIGHTS SHINE!!!  Each one of us has an inner light, a gift from God that we were placed on this earth to share.  Yes, it's finding meaning and purpose in our life and living the life we are passionate about.  We've all heard it a thousand times, but how long have you really sat down and thought about it?  Did some soul-searching?  Made sacrifices or the 'path less traveled' decision?  It's not all roses, but finding our passion in life is like a daily garden of fresh roses....blooming, sharing our beauty and fragrance to all we meet.

Adding to my daily moment of "thanks"....I'm thankful for the book signing at my church today and the 4 hours my mom spent with me to cover all 5 services.  Thankful to the strangers who bought a book, shared their stories, helped carry the boxes from my car, and simply showed appreciation for me being there.  It's just what I needed...a little boost for the soul.  Blessings to you this coming week!

In a Fog...

It's my 100th post!  Wow!  It certainly doesn't seem like I've written 100 posts, but here we are.  Thank you SO much for following me and investing your time in my story!!  I really appreciate it!

And, sorry for the late post...I've been sick this week and I've been in a bit of a fog this week.  Gradually, each day I'd get another symptom and feel a little worse.  Yesterday was the first day I woke up and didn't feel worse than the day before.  And today, I'm definitely starting to feel better...still tired with lingering symptoms, but better.

My head is not the only thing that has felt like it's been in a fog lately.  Nothing seems particularly clear right now.  The holidays are coming up, so the rush and the madness of decorating, buying presents, parties, cooking, etc are upon us.  But, I've been in one of those reflective moods lately...moreso looking to the future and what that holds.  I have no idea!  I think I just need to center myself a bit and truly look inward to find what will drive me to the next "thing"...whatever that may be.  I don't think I'm going through that mid-life crisis that so many men go through and I don't think I'm at a crossroads (yet)...I just feel like I've been "getting through it" all.  I've been trying to take it all in, enjoy those special moments (like my 1st book signing in my hometown), but I don't think I've processed everything that has happened in the last couple months and what it truly means to me.  I know what it means to me 'on the surface', but what has what I've accomplished this year and what I've been through mean to me?  Maybe part of that answer will come to me as I continue to get feedback on my book and what people thought of it.  My story is out there now so knowing that people have a better understanding of what it's like to be adopted or can relate to some of the stories only gives me a greater perspective of what I've been able to do this year.  Those are the blessings that help me realize my accomplishment.  But everyday, I do feel blessed and grateful for this life and the gifts I have to offer to others.  Maybe my next "thing" is just making sure I LET MY LIGHT SHINE each and every day!!  Blessings to you this week!

At a Standstill....

I knew this endeavor wouldn't be all roses...as a matter of fact, I was just hoping for a single rose because anything more than that would be overwhelming/too much to consider/the cherry, whip cream and sprinkles on top!  I knew there would be bumps in the road (all new paths have them) and it wasn't going to be easy because I had a lot to learn along the way.  This has all proven true (as with any endeavor), but right now I'm at a standstill.  Two book signings and very low to no turnout.  Disappointed.  Sad. 

Defeated?  No!  Learning experience?  Yes!  It's still just the beginning and yes, I'm learning every step of the way.  Who knew I'd even be where I am today?  I wrote a book...ok, not so hard to believe (at least in my head).  I got it published...ok, a little surprising and completely unbelievable if I really think about it!  I'm an author...what?!?!  Ok, that hasn't totally sunk in yet but maybe if I say it enough times it'll click. 

Now, how to hit the right market?  Or maybe I have (or at least skimmed it), but why haven't they bought the book yet?  If you've been following my blog and haven't gone on my website to buy my book yet why not?  What's stopping you?  What do I need to do?

In this month of "thanks", I'm thankful for feeling God's presence in my soul this morning at church...reminding me of his presence in my life and that I am worthy.  If I had not received that message this morning before my latest book signing that resulted in no one showing up my reaction and state of mind right now would probably be totally different.  I would probably only see the thorns in my single rose and shower myself with self pity.  Instead I see the light shining down on my rose...light that has helped it grow and light that will continue to let it blossom.  God's light is ever-present!  Blessings to you this week!

National Adoption Month!

It's National Adoption Month!  What does that mean to me?  Adoption was my salvation...my destiny.  It saved me, it was/is part of my path in this life and is part of who I am...but, it's not WHO I am.  Meaning, adoption/being adopted doesn't completely define who I am.  Yes, it's a part of who I am, but the soul that I was born with is WHO I am.  The spirit of my soul is my true authentic self and I haven't completely uncovered or know who that is yet...that's what this journey of life is all about...to discover WHO I truly am.  To grow, dig deep and trust in the spirit within to lead me through this journey.

National Adoption Month sheds a light on the plight of abandoned children.  Children who NEED forever homes!  Children who need open hearts, loving parents and a nurturing environment to thrive in.  It reminds us of all the innocent children who have suffered, who don't have consistent or constant care, or the undivided attention of loving parents.  All children deserve to have the opportunity to live in a safe and healthy environment, but that's not the reality for many.

So, as the next few weeks lead up to the hectic days of the holidays, remember to simply say a prayer for all those children that need a forever home...or donate money to a child in need...or spend some time volunteering for an organization that supports adoption or foster care.  We can all make a difference in a child's life! 

Remember, you can purchase my debut book, Corn-fed with Rice on the Side, at www.kimfenneman.com!

Turning the Clocks Back...

Fall back...hopefully you remembered to set your clocks for daylight savings time last night.  I forgot!  So, I got up ready to go work-out thinking man, I wish I had an extra hour of sleep, and then I saw the time on my phone...dangit!  I could've had an extra hour of sleep!  Now, I'm up and ready to go.  Oh well, the early bird gets the worm, right?  Well, in that case, work-out done, a couple loads of laundry going and a little bit of cooking going for the week...all before going to church this morning!  That's what I'm talking about!  Oh, and maybe a nap later in the day...probably when it turns dark out at 5:30!  I always dislike that first week of it getting dark early.  But, for a morning person like myself the sunrise earlier in the morning is always a beautiful sight!

This is my favorite time of year...Fall!!!  I love the cooler weather, the changing leaves, the crisp air, all the pumpkin food and drinks, craft fairs, thinking about the holidays but not in the frenzy of it yet, and watching football/hockey/basketball!  Ahhh, I love it all! 

But, I've also been having flashbacks of growing up on the farm recently.  The carefree days of running around the farm, going down by the creek for picnics/cutting down trees in the woods for firewood/canoeing/fire pits for smores/Christmas caroling around town.  All the joys of my youth!  Simple times.  Happy times.  And all the people that fill those memories.  Family and friends that showed up for my 1st book signing in town at the library and even those that didn't.  My friend's parents that I spent so much time with and all the parties my parents had with them at our house.  All my cousins...all the family get-togethers, holidays, reunions...we were all truly blessed to have spent so much time together just as a family!  I've been thinking a lot about that lately.  Thinking about different moments/memories of each of my cousins...not purposely seeking them out or trying to remember them, just popping in my head as I'm driving here and there.  Turning back the time on fond memories that remind me of where I came from...precious, endearing, truly thankful!!!  Wishing you a blessed week ahead!

Next Shipment

I'm expecting my next shipment of books this week!  I doubled the order from the original one, so there will be more boxes filling up my house.  Where to put all my book signing supplies, shipping supplies, and books during the holidays?  Right now they are consuming my dining room, but it'll soon be time to start decorating for Christmas so I need to find another room to move it all to.  I do have an extra room in the house that is the end-all-be-all room...meaning, if it doesn't fit in any other room in the house it goes in that room.  It's about to get a little more crowded in there!

I've taken a little bit of a break the last week or so to just slow down and not continue to exhaust myself.  It's definitely helped!  I'm still tired, but not exhausted!  How's that?!  ;-)  I still have a ton of marketing to do for the book, but I'm trying not to stress myself out about it.  There's so much going on right now...just life things in general...so I just need to do what I can each day and be OK with that.  And know that I'm doing my best and I'll get it all done...one day at a time!

Remembering a post from a couple weeks ago..."anything is possible!"  I'm still exploring, learning and experiencing new things related to the book, but isn't that what life is about anyways?!?!  Spending a little time to reassess, get my wits about me back (or at least feel like I do), and looking ahead with excitement and hope...time well spent!  I hope you can find a moment in your hectic day to take a breath and reassess, as well.  Blessings to you and the rest of your week!  And, for those in the U.S....have a fun and safe Halloween!

1st Flight...

This was posted on FB this week and thought it important to share.  After petitioning both Houses of Congress in 1955, Harry and Bertha Holt brought 8 children from Korea to the United States...thus starting the acceptance and gift of international adoption.  Powerful picture!

Ramping Up.....

As I mentioned in my last post, it's time to ramp up my marketing efforts!  One step at a time...well, maybe a little faster!  It's time to really get the word out there...out beyond my inner circle, my immediate bubble.  It's time to put my marketing skills to the test!  Maybe my career path became my career path for precisely this moment.  I didn't know what I really wanted to be coming out of high school or college.  In high school, all I knew was that I wanted to wear business suits!  I thought they made women look more powerful...hence the term "power suit."  But in all reality, I'm thankful I don't have to wear business suits every day to work! 

During my senior year of college, I really just stumbled into the marketing profession through a co-op opportunity at a major IT company.  That was the start of my professional career...in marketing!  Go figure!  Life has a way of presenting opportunities at the right time.  We don't always know it at the time...ok, we rarely know it at the time...because we're so consumed with this or that, something that won't be important a week from now or just the chaos of daily life!  Sometimes you can't clearly see the path God has taken you down until you stop and look back years later.  And then you "get it!"  It all makes sense now.  Sometimes you need more time before the path is clearly visible, but if you stop, reflect and calm your senses the picture comes into focus.

So, as I ramp up this new part of the publishing process I take pause, get focused and get it done!  Along with all the other demands of my life...work, birthdays, holidays, self-exploration course, finding time for family and friends...and finding time for myself!  Although life is running full speed ahead these days, I still take that moment at the end of each day to be grateful and thank God for all my daily blessings.  However crazy things are going to get...I know God is leading the way and will provide!  Blessings to you this week!

Was It The Full Moon?

Yesterday there was a full moon...maybe that explains my wacky day!  It started off like any other day, but once I got out and about trying to get things done for the day it got stranger and crazier!  Mom and I went to get a mani/pedi, but there was a long wait at my regular salon.  So, we went to another one and as I've mentioned in my book I always get the same question when I go to the nail salon..."Where are you from?"  This time the girl straight out asked me if I was Chinese or Japanese.  She said I looked more like one of those than Korean.  Hmmmm.  That was a first.  Then my mom chimes in and says "I'm her mom."  The four people working on our fingernails and toenails all stopped and stared at us.  Then, three of them said "mother-in-law?"  I said "No, mother."  No one said anything.  Then they all started talking in that other language they know we can't understand.  Oh great!  I can only imagine what they are saying! 

After a quick lunch and stop at a local grocery store, we hurried home to get ready for my book signing.  Leaving a few minutes later than I planned, we hit the road...and tons of traffic!  Oh crap!  Every major highway we got onto there was major traffic!  Both of us started to breathe a little quicker and get a little more anxious as we came upon more and more traffic.  We finally got to the bookstore, but all the parking was taken and I still had to carry in (the really heavy) box of books!  Thankfully God was watching over us and someone pulled out right in front of the bookstore.  Score!  Thank you, thank you, thank you!  We walked inside just as the Book Signing was scheduled to start!  Phew!  It only took a few minutes to set-up, as it was a fairly small bookstore...cute and quaint. 

Two hours later...and only 2 books sold.  One to my cousin, and mind you I only have two cousins that live down here, and one to a person that had called in.  No one else!  No one else had come to see me or to buy a book.  Disappointment?  Sure.  Heartbroken?  No.  It's the way it goes sometimes and since I'm still new at this it was a good lesson in making sure I really market the crap out of each of these signings!

It was such a beautiful day out yesterday, too.  So, mom and I did a little shopping...well, we tried to.  We've been looking for a certain kind of lotion and they only carry it in a few places around the metroplex.  One place was the bookstore I had my signing in, but we forgot to look while we were there.  So, as I'm driving to our next shopping location, mom is trying to look up other locations to buy the lotion.  After deciding maybe it might be easier to just buy it online we drove down a little shopping area and ran into (just by chance) one of the retail stores that said they carried the lotion!  How crazy is that?  We went inside, but they were all out of the lotion.  Figures.  That's how my day was going.  Throughout the day of course my patience with other drivers was minimal so I'm surprised we didn't get into a fender bender...although I did run over a curb pretty hard.  Hope that didn't leave a crack on the underside of my car.  That's all I need.

Man, what a really strange day!  And yes, I'm blaming it on the full moon!  I SO need a week off (of my day job work) to get all the work done I need to for the book.  That's not going to happen until Thanksgiving and then I'll have to use at least 2 of those days to decorate for Christmas.  Holy moly...it's almost that time of year already!  Time is flying by!  Time to stay focused and try to get it all done!  Blessings to you this week!

1st 'Public' Book Signing!

My 1st public book signing...meaning, open to the public and not just family and friends...is this coming Saturday, October 19 from 2-4 pm at Logos Bookstore in Dallas, TX!  Another "first" for me!  I'm grateful for the bookstore opening their doors and space to me, an unknown, first time author.  And, I'm grateful for the opportunity to hopefully affect/touch one person's life with my story, my journey, my experiences through my book.  It's still not really real to me yet, so maybe after a few more signings and meeting complete strangers sharing their stories with me it'll finally seem real.

Thankfully, I finally have a small break/reprieve...i.e. vacation from my day job...to rest (but not really) to focus on strictly marketing my book!  I have a plan that I created months ago, but just haven't had time to really put it into action yet.  A few things here and there, but it's time to put it into full gear!  So here goes...an all out marketing assault!

Besides, my 2 other upcoming book signings in the Dallas area I also just scheduled a book signing at my church in November!  Blessed.  The second reprint of my book is in production and should arrive by the end of this month, so I'll be fully stocked (at least I hope) for the marketing push I'm about to make.  I just received the files for my ebook, so now I've got to research and figure out how to get it up on Amazon.  Any experts out there, please lend your advice and knowledge.

Right now, this endeavor reminds me of the saying "all things are possible."  I have no idea what "all things" entail right now, but I'm curious to find out.  So, wherever you are in life, whatever you love doing or whatever you wish you were doing with your life...remember, "All things are possible!"  Just believe, pursue, and follow God's lead in your life!  He knows ALL and provides ALL.  Blessings to you and I hope to see you at an upcoming Book Signing (if you're in the Dallas area).

A Bit of a Blur....

These past 2 weeks have been a bit of a blur to me because I've been so busy at work!  Last week I arrived in Las Vegas on Sunday afternoon for my company's big conference of the year.  I didn't leave the hotel/casino/conference center or see sunlight again until Friday afternoon when I returned home!!  Unbelievable!  What a really long week!  And I have to mention, there was a huge Asian tourist group at the hotel all week so I was always running into 2 or 3 groups of Asians who were following a colored flag their group leader was carrying to their next attraction.  Several times I'd be standing in the hallway and a whole herd of them would just stampede right around me or a couple times I tried to get around them from behind, but I could never maneuver my way around them....and ALL of their cameras!  Seriously!

And then last week I flew to Los Angeles on Wednesday for an event on Thursday and back home on Friday.  Thankfully, no more traveling for a couple more weeks.  Actually, I was hoping not to travel for the remainder of the year, but I may have to make 1-2 more trips.  I'm just ready for some downtime and for things to slow down a bit.  I'm ready to enjoy the cooler temps, changing leaves and the smell of fireplaces crackling!

Sometimes life moves by so quickly I'm not sure how you're supposed to "just be in the moment" and "take it all in".  Most of us are just trying to survive and get through it (whatever 'it' may be at the moment).  But, in those crazy, hectic times I have learned to try to take a brief pause and either thank God for giving me the strength and ability to get through it or I ask Him to take control or remind myself to just "Trust in the Lord"!  He will provide! 

So, as the holidays approach and I suspect many of you will have weeks that become a blur to you because there is so much going on in your lives, take a brief pause.  Find a moment of sanity...and then keep going.  Find the beauty and glory of each day...each day that you're able to grace this earth...and be at peace and/or be grateful.

A Look Inside...

A big part of writing my book and putting it out there was to educate and let people know what it's like to be adopted and/or Asian.  And, it's why I structured the book the way I did in giving little glimpses into everyday life through stories of daily situations we all go through.  So, hopefully the book provides that vivid image for you or just a casual understanding of what it's like.

However, when I was in Asheville, NC a couple of weeks ago for work I met a gentlemen who asked me about my name...my first name!  And, if you've read my book I discuss "my name" in the first chapter!  So, it was interesting how this conversation came about...by asking me why my first name was Kim.  He was a Caucasian man who was married to an adopted Asian woman and his parents had been foster parents while he was growing up.  He had also spent 8-9 years living in Korea when he was younger, so he definitely knew more about the culture than I did!  And, his wife's two sisters were also adopted, so we had a very in-depth and interesting conversation about adoption, how people react to us, and how people treat us in general once they know we're adopted.  He mentioned this YouTube video called "What Kind of Asian Are You?"  Check it out!
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWynJkN5HbQ)

This will definitely give you an "inside look" into many instances I know many Asians have encountered, myself included, throughout our lifetime.  Enjoy your week!

Launched!

The book is in hand, the website is ready to take orders and book signings are scheduled!  I'm officially launched!!!  Ok, now what?!  For starters, another reprint request has been submitted, so I should be fully stocked to take orders from the website and for all my upcoming book signings.  Updating the website, writing a press release along with getting my PR kit updated, and yes...fulfilling my first online orders!!  Woo hoo!! 

And so it really begins...this last month was just a taste of what is to come...it was more of a celebration of what I had accomplished and the reality of it all.  And again, I'm not sure the reality part has officially hit me yet.  I think the next couple months will be telling, though, as far as who and how many people will show up for my book signings...it's a big unknown and the uncertainty of it makes me a little nervous.  But, I'll definitely be doing all I can to draw attention to and drive attendance to all my signings.  So, it's time to put my marketing plan into full drive!  An all out attack to get the word out!  And, that starts with all those who have been following me throughout my journey through this blog...that means YOU!  Please share my website with all your friends and family, and if you have any suggestions on where to advertise, local magazines or organizations that I should be contacting, please let me know!  I appreciate all your support!!!

Please visit my site at www.kimfenneman.com to purchase your copy of my book, Corn-fed with Rice on the Side!!!

Website is Live and Kickin'!

My website has been up for several weeks now, but pulling the trigger on the purchase part yesterday was really scary and exciting!  For all those who have asked over the past month or so as my books were being shipped and as I started scheduling book signings, you can finally BUY my book!  You can buy online at www.kimfenneman.com!  Please share the link with others!

And don't forget to check out the "News and Events" page of the website.  It lists all my upcoming book signings.  I've got one coming up on Oct. 19 in Dallas, Nov. (date being confirmed now) in Frisco, and Dec. 7 in Plano!  Would love to see you at one of these upcoming signings!

Thanks for following my blog and my journey over the past several months to get to this point!  I appreciate all of your support!  Feel free to share with friends and family, too! 

Time to BUY!!!

This is it!  It's time to BUY!  I'm finally flipping the switch on my web site on Tuesday, October 1st so you can BUY, BUY, BUY!!!  I know you've all been patiently waiting as you've been going through this publishing journey with me....so, here you go!  Place your orders TODAY!

Gulp!  It's a little scary and I must admit I've been a little gun shy to pull the trigger.  Why?  Aren't I excited and anxious to get my book out there to everyone who wants it?  Yes, absolutely!!  However, I'm a perfectionist to a certain extent so I wanted to make sure I had everything set up correctly, the back-end working, Pay Pal ready to go and all my shipping supplies in hand before I pulled the trigger.  So, if something doesn't work completely right bear with me while I figure it all out.  Throughout this whole process that's exactly what I've been doing step by step...figuring it all out.  Plus, I honestly don't know what the demand is going to be like, so I've been a little nervous to find out.  But, the time has come!  It's time to set my fears aside and let it rip!  Holy cow!

I'm in complete awe and wonder with the path that is in front of me.  Who knew?  I had no idea any of this would be part of my journey in life and now...now, I've actually written a book, gotten it published, had my initial hoopla of launching the book and even signed some books for family and friends.  What?!?!  Life can be so unexpected.  And most times it's not in the best ways (or those are the times we remember most), but this...this has truly been an unexpected surprise in my life.  So, with great faith and enormous trust in God I take each step with reassurance, excitement and purpose.  God is good and ever-present. 

So, as you go online to my web site (www.kimfenneman.com) to buy my book know that I've put every ounce of myself into my book, this process, the site, interview/blog postings and book signings to give back and make a difference for someone else.  Through God's grace and strength I'm honored and grateful to offer this piece of light to you.  May you find comfort, humor and understanding that you will carry with you and share with others.  Thank you for your tremendous support!  Blessings to you all!

Where Do I Recharge?

The whirlwind has come and gone...and I'm just plain tired.  But, there's still SO much to do!  Work (my day job) has been really busy leading up to a huge conference next week and there's never enough time in the day to get everything done for my "night" job...working on marketing the book, getting the website up, and all the other details of selling your own product!  So, where do I recharge?  Is there a station I can pull up to and plug into for some extra energy?  Is there a spa that can infuse a shot of pep in my step?  Or is there just a day or two where I can just rest, not think and just be?

Unfortunately, next week I'll be working at that conference and I can already anticipate being exhausted!  But wait, I'm already exhausted...how is this going to turn out?!  Just take it one day at a time...plus, I might possibly have to schedule in SLEEP!  We all have those times in our lives where life responsibilities/activities/schedules seem overwhelming!  How do we get through it?  Through God's grace, support from others, and probably a few moments of insanity that help propel us forward!

I don't need to recharge my excitement or enthusiasm for my book or the possibilities ahead surrounding the book.  It's everything else...work, being physically tired, daily responsibilities.  Sounds like I need a vacation, huh?  Not anytime soon, unfortunately.  But, tomorrow is a new day and with each gift of another day to try and make a difference in this life I get reinvigorated...as long as it's a full 8 hours of sleep!  :-)

So, if you're overwhelmed by life right now hang in there, find your time/space/place to recharge and then reach out to someone else who may need that boost to keep going!  Lean on others when you need it, but give back when you are able.  It's the best part of the circle of life. 

Hoopla Over or Just Beginning?

Cooler fall weather is upon us...cool, crisp, blue skies...my favorite time of the year!  I love the cooler temperatures, the hint of fire places being lit, football antics and tailgating, hot chocolate, colorful fall leaves and running outside.  It's also the calm before the storm of rushing through the holiday season.  So, sit back, enjoy the beautiful weather (hopefully wherever you are) and take it all in!

As I briefly reflect on the past two weekends, I'm extremely blessed for the truly amazing experience.  You only get one "first" of anything and although I may write another book and go through this process again (no plans to do so right now) it was all an unknown adventure for me that was exciting and humbling.  As I've mentioned before, I'm very sentimental about my hometown and the people there so last week's book signings only added to that heartfelt emotion for me.  The experience only grew my love for that community, our family and friends even more!  That's a true blessing and gift that I'm very grateful for.  And, I love that I could share it with all of them! 

Yesterday, I had my book launch party for very close friends and family where I live now.  Again, a few nerves beforehand but it was more because I was running all around town trying to get errands done before the big party.  But, to see my close friends there supporting me and their enormous excitement for me was truly humbling because I never thought I would be doing this...sharing so much of myself to so many.  So, now I'm curious to get feedback from those who have read the book.  All good so far, and of course, I'm not really expecting any negative feedback from family and friends...more what surprised them or what they learned about me or my experiences that they've now learned from.  In one conversation with someone yesterday, it did hit me a little bit that this was now real...but not completely.  Because after this, my next book signing will really be open to the public...the mass public...and not just a community where our family practically knows everyone or where I've invited only a few family and friends.  The next one will really be a display of the interest for my book and this topic.  And, thankfully for me it's a few weeks away so I can recover and get organized again.  And, add the purchase option to my website!  The one thing everyone has been waiting to know...when can they buy it online?  When?  October 1!!!! 

So, from the sincerest place in my heart....Thank you to all of you who have come out to support me these past two weekends!!  I am truly grateful for your love, support, enthusiasm for my new endeavor, and encouragement.  I have placed my faith in God throughout this journey and he has provided strength, courage, no fear, and determination to trust in Him each step of the way.  May His grace continue to bless this new path in my life.  And may He bless each one of you with new wonders and possibilities!

Sinking in yet?

I'll keep this post short since my last one was pretty long.  Has this whole thing sunk in yet?  Nope!  Not even close!  It may have brushed the edges, but the reality of this whole thing is still not within reach...at least not in my mind yet.  My heart has felt it, though, through the outpouring of love and support ...and unexpected surprises from family, friends and even strangers!  But, the two haven't connected yet (my heart and my mind) to fully grasp the gravity of what I've created, accomplished or that I could potentially impact someone else's life in a positive way.  That's my hope, though, to bring some light into someone else's life...to show them hope and a little humor!

But now people have actually read the book...straight through for many of you, so that should tell you it's a pretty easy read.  Seeing my aunt reading it right in front of me was pretty surreal!  And now, getting feedback from family and friends on what they thought of it is satisfying, exciting and a little nerve-racking at times...mainly because it's not just a book about knitting or how to plant a garden...it's a book about my life!  I'm putting it all out there!  It's a little scary.  But then again, it's invigorating and feels right.  There's always been a peace and a calm in my heart about going through this process and publishing my 1st book.  There's never been any hesitation or moment of doubt about it...that's how I know it's part of God's path for me. 

So, as I anticipate each new step in this unfamiliar adventure I hope that I can be fully present in each moment, be able to take it in with gratitude and give back to others with grace and respect.  The realization of what I've achieved so far will hit me one day, but until then I'll embrace each new day, every new step with a grateful heart.  And, I'll let you know when it finally hits me!

My 1st Book Signing...Truly Grateful

I survived a whirlwind week after returning home safely late last night from my 1st book signing.  So, how did it go?  Awesome!  It was what I had hoped for and so much more!  As we drove into town the night before, my dad was admiring all the corn fields and my mom was trying to take pictures of them all (as if she'd never seen a corn field before!)  We also watched the temperature drop as we got closer to my aunt and uncle's house.  Ahhh, the cool weather felt good...it felt like fall!

The next morning I woke up nervous, but ready to go!  I didn't really know what to expect or how many people would show up.  But, since the signing wasn't until later in the afternoon we had some time to visit some family.  We drove out to my other aunt and uncle's house so my dad could "play" in all of their gardens.  It was his equivalent of going to Disneyland.  He was in heaven!  Checking out their rows and rows of beautiful tomatoes, ground cherries (love!), cauliflower (so that's how they grow), and the biggest cabbage you've ever seen!  We brought home one that was 12 lbs!  The next garden had pumpkins...orange and white ones!  Beautiful!  In another garden they had popcorn corn stalks growing...yellow and white.  Who knew?!  Butternut squash, acorn squash, carrots, and I know I'm forgetting a ton of other veggies.  All perfectly grown and looking wonderful.  And of course, a whole lot of sweet corn that my dad absolutely had to bring home!  So, after a morning of what seemed like a bountiful farmers market, we headed back to my aunt and uncle's house where we were staying for a quick lunch before heading in town for the book signing.

As we got to the library, there was a sign with the flyer they had made (and that was posted ALL over town) posted outside the door with balloons on it.  Growing up, I spent numerous hours at the old library going to story time and other activities there.  But, I had never been in the new library until now.  It was beautiful!  I was thoroughly impressed by the look and feel of it inside and they recently added on a new area up front where our tables were set up for the book signing.  So, this was the first time the new area was really getting to be used for something special.  The kids area was creatively decorated and there was a whole basement level that we didn't even have time to see.  I was thrilled to be in that place for this special occasion.

As we walked up to the table a complete and unexpected surprise sat on my signing table...2 arrangements of flowers!  I thought maybe the library had bought them as decorations.  But, when the librarian told me they had come for me I almost cried.  They were from 2 of my aunts...one who lived there and the other from my aunt in TX.  I was overwhelmed by their thoughtfulness.  We got set up and 20 minutes before the signing officially started I had my first customer!  And then another...a family relative (who was directly related to my great aunt that died the week before at age 105).  And then the stream of people started!  I had given both my parents a job to do...my dad was supposed to take the money and my mom was supposed to get people to fill out a contact card and give them a receipt....nothing too hard.  Except, that I think most people were just as excited to come to my book signing as they were to see my parents!  We have a huge extended family in this town, so we know a lot of people...or at least my aunts and uncles and parents do!  So, needless-to-say my dad walked off the job after taking just 2 payments!  He ended up talking to just about everyone who came in...which I kind of expected since he used to be a farmer there and I knew everyone would want to talk to him.  My mom walked off the job for a little bit, but then saw that I was struggling to sign books, take money, write receipts and get people to fill out contact cards all by myself!!  So, she came over and started to help out a bit.  It seemed like a non-stop stream of people and I tried not to talk too long with any one person as I would always see someone standing behind them patiently waiting.  But, it was hard especially when I haven't seen many of these people since we moved or in several years.  Sooo many that came were very close family friends, actual family or friends.  It was SO wonderful to see ALL of them!  And some were complete strangers that had seen the promotions in other local newspapers and had adopted themselves or one gentlemen even drove an hour just to get a book for a friend.  Wow.  Thank you!  Two hours went by quickly...but, it was fun! 

One of the most meaningful conversations I had was with a very special lady who ran story time when I was growing up there.  I was so excited to see her!  I told her about all the things I remembered about story time and she was just thrilled to hear all of my fond memories.  I told her that it was because of her that being in this library now and having my 1st book signing here was so important to me and that it meant so much to me.  And, that I loved how the library had evolved and was continuing to grow.  It's such a wonderful building and it's because of the foundation that she built!  She's such a tremendous advocate for reading.  She still promotes it in surrounding communities today even though she retired many years ago.  Plus, she brought me an unexpected surprise in a little gift which was so thoughtful and touching.  I'm so glad she was part of my childhood and I was able to learn from her.  What a delightful lady!

As we got back to my aunt and uncle's house and read through the names of all that had come that first day, it was fun to hear about the conversations my parents and I had with them all.  And, since my aunt is my dad's oldest sibling, she had great insight and was able to connect all the dots for me as to how we're related to them, if we were.

The following morning I got everyone up and going since the book signing was right when the library opened around mid-morning.  As we arrived, one of my dad's cousins who used to be the library board's president showed my dad around downstairs and told him about the growth and expansion of the library.  They are currently building a reading park across the street.  We got all set up and one of my cousin's arrived.  She works in a library at a high school nearby.  She bought a book for their library and never thought she'd be talking to them about one of her cousin's books.  Seems strange to me too.  So, we talked for awhile until a gentlemen and his wife came up and wanted to ask a few questions.  After that, the wave of people began.  It seemed a tad slower than the day before as I was able to manage signing books, taking payments, writing receipts and getting people to fill out contact cards all by myself the entire time!  Yes, no help from the parents at all!  They're both fired!  ;-)  But, it was because more family and friends showed up and it was fun to catch up with all of them.  We actually had around the same number of people show up on both days so it was a great turnout!  Two of my teachers came and it was great to see them both!  Two of my dear friends showed up...both funny, goofy, lovely and amazing gals that I'm so glad I can still call my friend!  Several ladies that came told me that they were my dad's cousins, which I had assumed I'd get a lot of since we were back in our hometown.  I had heard their names before, but don't really remember meeting them as a child.  I recognized many faces from the community, but didn't know their names until they told me.  And, another one of my cousins came which was a little bit of a surprise since his oldest son was getting married later that day (and where we would be spending our evening).  But, I'm so happy he came! 

I'm truly humbled by all of those who came out to support me...friends, family, the community and complete strangers...to show their love, encouragement and excitement for my book.  It was still strange for me to walk down Main St. and see just about every business with the flyer promoting my book signings up in their windows...one after the other after the other.  Amazing.  Even after all these years this community is still supporting me.  Honored.  And, one family friend told my mom that the flashing digital sign that's in the middle of town was promoting my book signing on Friday.  What?!  I was on a digital sign?!?!  Holy cow!  Wish I had gotten a picture of that!  I've never been an autograph person...I've always thought they were silly...getting them from athletes or celebrities.  I'd much rather have a picture with them than an autograph.  And, now people want my autograph?  It's really strange and I don't think I'll ever get used to that part.  But, now people have the book and I'm curious to know what they think of it...if anything surprises them.  Holy moly...I guess this is real now, huh?  Yes, I'm still taking it all in...but feel so blessed by this past weekend.

So, now that the 1st book signing is over and most of my family have either seen the book cover or have bought the book I want to share the significance of the book cover.  In the back of my mind throughout the publishing process, I always wanted a picture of a barn on the cover but just didn't know what else I wanted on it or how it should look.  As you recall from previous postings leading up to the books being printed, the book cover was the very last thing to get completed and it was done at the 11th hour...just in time!  When I had gone back to my hometown in June for my class's reunion (the one I would have graduated with if we had not moved), I had driven over to our old farm to just sit and reflect there for awhile.  There's not much left there except one part of our old huge barn.  That's the only building left there...one last piece of my childhood still standing.  So, I took a couple pictures of it.  It was a drizzly day out, but I got some good pictures of it.  I had sent one picture of it to my publisher to see if they could incorporate it into the book cover.  I wanted good corn and a beautiful sunset, too.  But, apparently it's very difficult to find good corn and a good sunset together.  So, this cover was really pieced together with all the things I wanted.  I love the book cover!  It's bright, has great colors and it has our barn on it!  Our barn!  A piece of my life, my childhood, my family's life and legacy...one piece still standing and now will live on as part of history on this book cover!  My aunts, uncles and cousins that came all knew it was our barn.  They knew...and loved it!  I love that I can carry that piece on to other generations. 

I don't think I've completely conveyed how much it meant to me to have my 1st book signing in my hometown, with friends and family or exactly what the book cover means to me because it hasn't all completely sunk in yet.  I know it's real, but to completely receive all the love and support I've been given over the past weekend is overwhelming.  I'm humbled.  I'm blessed.  I'm honored.  I'm truly grateful.

How Did the 1st Book Signing Go??

Check back tomorrow because I'm traveling all day today, but will post all the details tomorrow!!!  Thanks for being a diligent follower and checking on my normal post day.

This Is It!! Off to My 1st Book Signing!

Work week done...check!  Yippee...vacation!  But, it really doesn't feel like a vacation.  It feels more like a really exciting business adventure...back in my hometown!  I write a lot about this place in my book and you'll find I'm pretty sentimental about it.  I'm not sure if that's just the girl in me or the country girl in me or what, but it just holds a very special place in my heart with a lot of special memories.  

I can't wait to see my family...aunts, uncles, cousins, 2nd cousins, possibly some great aunts and uncles, friends, maybe even some old teachers...oh, and eat some really good home cooking!!  Ohhh, how I miss my Grandma's wonderful cooking!  But, both of my aunts are fabulous cooks...something they got from their mother.  As well as my aunt in TX who makes all the classics every time we get together...reminding me of home and family!  I always get anxious to get back to my hometown because I have so many fond memories there...of the people and that place.  And each time I go back to visit and drive down Main St. (where there's no traffic light in town), it's still the same family loving, traditional, farming community that it's always been.  Sure, some things have changed, but for the most part not really.  I love that I grew up there and had those simple and traditional family values instilled in me.  I could see that beaming out of my friends when I went back for their class's 20th high school reunion in June.  My friends were no longer the 9 years olds I had remembered when I left.  They were now (mostly) married, moms and dads with beautiful kids and had the same values as what I remembered when I left.  It wasn't necessarily surprising, but really heartwarming to see, especially with their kids.  Love that!

So, onto the FUN part of my whirlwind week!  Although, I must mention the passing of my great aunt Frieda at the age of 105 last Thursday.  Sorry we missed you by a week, but I know you were surrounded by loved ones who celebrated the full life that you lived.  I'm in awe of your longevity and only hope to grace this earth as long as you did.  Family...that's what it's all about.  Again, prayers for safe travels up and back.  Hope you're all having a wonderful week!

A Whirlwind Week Ahead

It's going to be a wild and crazy (well, hopefully not too crazy) week ahead!  I'm traveling for work today for an event on the east coast.  I'm going to a beautiful, top rated resort but it's supposed to be rainy the whole time I'm there.  Darn.  I guess it won't matter much once I arrive since I'll be stuck inside conference rooms for the next couple days.  So, a couple long days ahead for work and then off to IA for my 1st book signing!

All the planning and preparation for this 1st book signing has been fun, new and exciting!  But, now it's almost here!  I started getting a little nervous on Friday when I heard the library is getting a great response from all the flyers around town, FB postings, newspaper promos and that many locals are talking about it!  That's what you want, right?!  The marketing efforts have created a buzz and that's always a good thing.  But, I think my nerves are mixed with anticipation and excitement.  I'm just SO grateful for all the support and good wishes.  I almost don't know how to take it all in. 

I had a good conversation with a co-worker this past week about how (mostly) women have difficulty accepting praise or compliments.  We just shrug it off and/or don't fully accept or receive the sincere words given to us.  Several years ago I had another co-worker compliment me on something and I shrugged it off and she told me to just say "thank you" next time!  I appreciated her candor and since then have done just that!  But, all the congratulations and support I've received over the past couple weeks leading up to this 1st book signing have truly been heartwarming, inspiring, and overwhelming.  I'm not sure I was expecting it and I'm definitely sure I wasn't ready to receive it.  Life has been too hectic and busy to actually take the time to take it all in!  I'm very mindful of that and really want to take in this moment...my 1st book signing...in my hometown!  This will never come again, so I want to be fully present in the moment...to receive it and to be able to take it all in with gratitude.

I honestly don't know what to expect, but I know I'm blessed by the opportunity and by my friends and family...and hometown community...that support me!  It means the world to me!  So, I plan to utilize the 12 hour drive up to IA to center myself to fully receive the events ahead...to calm my mind, slow down the non-stop to-do list that's constantly been running through my head for the past several weeks (this will be the hardest thing to do!), and enjoy the moment!  So, please pray for safe travel by land and air this week, and I hope you find the simple joys in each day ahead this week!  Blessings to you all!

Getting it ALL Set-up....

The books are here...now what?!  Getting the book picked up by a publisher, edited, produced and shipped was a process all in itself...check!  (If you were following one of my previous posts.) Now it's onto selling my books!  Here we go!

But wait!  I've still got a few (or in my mind several things swirling around) details to get done.  I've got to finish the website adding payment info...hello, Pay Pal (and learning about that whole process)...get all my shipping gear ready to go, and get all my supplies ready to go for my first book signing!  I'm getting there!  You should see all the lists laying around my house!  My mind jumps from one thing to the next (things weeks away) so I have to write down all the details as I think of them...or at least try to. 

And then there's the marketing of it all!  This is my home turf...what I do for a living, so this should be easy, right?!  It is and I have a marketing plan in place, but I just don't have the time to get it all done yet.  But, that's actually not a bad thing.  I don't necessarily need to do it all at once, right?  Back to one step at a time.  Although, once I posted on FB that I had received the books everyone wanted to know how to get a copy NOW!  The website is coming, I promise!  And, I'm trying to get a local book signing scheduled, I promise!  Throw in there a couple of work trips over the next couple of weeks and it's a little crazy...more so in my head!  A lot going on...but, I'll get there, I promise.  :-)

My first magazine article should be published soon, so stay tuned for that!  Plus, my hometown newspaper (where I'm doing my first book signing) is printing an interview I did with them about my book in this week's edition...on the front page!!!  What!!!???  Holy cow!  I didn't expect that.  Me?  Newsworthy...for the front page?!  Oh my!  I'm not sure I'm ready for that.  I'm not the "front and center" kind of gal.  This is going to be strange, surreal and again, I'm not sure when this is all going to hit me. 

I'm truly humbled by every one's support and enthusiasm for my book.  I truly appreciate it!  And, I look forward to seeing you at a book signing or sending you a book very soon! 

They're HERE!!!

Thank you for your prayers!  I received the books on Friday...but I was out of town, so I didn't get to see them until later yesterday evening!  Ahead of schedule...thank goodness...I could feel the anxiety building for a daily dose of worry starting all next week.  Now I'll just divert that worry to something else on my to-do list...that's how that works, right?!

Unreal...they're here....they're here!!  Now what?  Just kidding!  I've been doing double duty these past several weeks...working my 'day' job and then coming home to work my 'night' job.  But now I finally get to see the fruits of all my labor from my 'night' job!  Honestly, I'm more excited about seeing all my friends and families reactions!  That'll be the moment when I'm hoping it all kicks in a little bit...the reality of this crazy and wonderful endeavor!  Who knew?  I had no idea this was part of my journey, God's plan for my life.  It just happened.  Truly.  It just reaffirms my belief that God works in mysterious ways and I can clearly see how my path lined up over the past several years to get me to this point.  Wow.  In this moment I am humbled by God's glory.

And, it's not about selling books...it's about Him giving me the ability, the opportunity and the courage to share my story.  I'm typically a fairly reserved person and I like to keep most things to myself...primarily my life...ha!  Well, that is about to be shattered by my simple desire to try and make a difference...in just one person's life...in this world.  This is my small contribution to the greater good...it's exciting, it's scary and it's fulfilling.

Now the real fun begins, right?!  I have no idea what the demand will be or what the reaction will be from others (besides my friends and family who I'm SO grateful for ALL your support), but I guess I'm about to find out!  But, I trust in my intention for this book and God's light in my life.  Blessings to all!!!

Putting it All Together

As the days pass by and I get closer to actually receiving my first shipment of books and seeing my book for the first time, I'm going through my checklist daily and trying to get everything done!  1st book signing booked, promotions done, interview done...check!  Working through the actual set-up of the book signing...taking payments, giving receipts, keeping track of inventory...pretty much worked out (in my head).  Booking local book launch party...still trying to get the best deal and get it booked ASAP so I can get invites out!  Finishing website...still a lot to do.  And all the other mundane details that must get done before my first magazine article gets published next week!  Yikes!  I think that was only one check, huh?

So, for anyone thinking about or wanting to write a book there's a lot more to it!  Writing it is probably the easiest part!  But, it's a new adventure with new things to learn...almost like starting my own mini-business I suppose.  Who knew?!  So, bit by bit, piece by piece, check mark by check mark it'll ALL get down!  Then I can really start to promote it like crazy!!  Watch out!

Thanks again for going on this new adventure with me and for all your good wishes!  And, thanks for your prayers that my books get shipped before my deadline! 

Is this Happening?!

Yesterday I saw the first live promotions for my 1st book signing...got a little teary-eyed!  Must have been the music in the background.  ;-)  Holy cow!  Is this really happening?  I don't think reality has hit me yet and I'm not sure when it will.  I've really just been going through this whole process step by step and not looking too far ahead.  And now with the daily anticipation of my first shipment of books and ALL the promotional planning for my 1st book signing, my book launch party, and all the additional advertising opportunities ahead of me I've just been in "go" mode.  My to-do list is long and I've just been focused on that...not the reality of it all.  But, to see something live...wow!  It IS real!! 

I think life will have to slow down for my brain to fully grasp the enormity of it all, but I'm living in warp speed for the foreseeable future so I'm not quite sure how to take it ALL in just yet.  I think I'll just be saying a lot of these in the next couple of weeks...Wow!  Holy cow!  Oh my goodness!  Really?!

Writing a book was never a dream of mine, so it's not like I'm living out a life-long dream.  I think that's partly why my brain is having a hard time wrapping itself around this whole thing, especially now that it's time to launch the book.  But, it is important to me to make a difference in this life and if this is my small way of doing that then I'm utterly fulfilled.  Or perhaps it'll just be my small attempt at it anyway.  And perhaps this book is leading me to realize one of my life-long dreams....who knows?!  Guess I'll find out! 

Sorry, just have it say it...WOW!!!

My 1st Book Signing Booked!

Wow!  My first book signing is scheduled and again the ironies of my life continue....as my 1st book signing will be back in my hometown in IA!  It's almost too good to be true!  And, I'm fully aware of God's presence through this process and how blessed I am!  God has perfect timing!  Hard to understand and believe sometimes, but in moments like these I HAVE to believe!

My cousin is getting married next month, so what better time to showcase my debut book to all my friends and family!  They all want copies, of course, so this cuts down on my shipping costs...ha!  No, seriously....I'm humbled and honored to be able to go back to my hometown to present my book to all those that loved, supported and encouraged me as a newly adopted child in a new country, a new state, a new environment.  And their love, support and encouragement has continued throughout my life.  What better way to repay all of them then to give them the first opportunity to buy my book.  I can't wait to see their faces, their expressions when they see the book!  I'm definitely anticipating that moment!  The book cover has special meaning to me and to my family, so I'm anxious for them to see it!  I don't want to spoil it now, but will explain more after my 1st book signing.  (Just a little teaser to stay tuned!) 

I not only dedicate this book to my parents and family, but to that town in particular!  They had a lot to do with who I've become and how I see the world.  They had complete acceptance of me as a child...the first internationally adopted child in the area.  How is that possible?  Small town USA.  I talk about being accepted and how that shaped my life more in the book.  But, the importance can't be understated....acceptance, no matter who you are is a huge thing in anyone's life!  We all want to be accepted.  And, as a new school year begins and kids walk into new classrooms the top thing on their mind besides what to wear the first day of school is wanting and needing to be accepted by their peers.  It's rooted in us at a very young age and I was extremely lucky to have grown up in that community at that time.

So, for me to go back there for my 1st book signing is extremely meaningful to me!  To try and show my appreciation and gratitude to all those that have had a small...or big part in my life and just say this is what you nurtured all those years ago...this is what your love and support has created.  So, although scheduling my 1st book signing is a huge thing on it's own...this takes it to another level...the perfect place with the perfect people at the perfect time!  God is good!

But, it doesn't hurt to ask for your prayers that I'll actually get the books on time for the book signing!!!  No anxiety here.  ;-) 

Off to the Printers!!!

It's DONE!  My book is officially off the printers!!!  It came down to the wire on Friday, as the printers needed to have all the files and the book cover in order to meet my deadline next month.  What's the deadline?  My 1st book signing!!!  It's scheduled and will start promoting for it next week!  Holy cow! 

If you've been following my blog you know that I've been waiting for the past couple weeks on the final proof of my book cover....patiently waiting, mind you.  That was the last thing to finalize for the book.  So, after telling my publisher on Monday that I had my 1st book signing next month the back and forth of getting it finalized ensued this week.  I was anxious every day to get the final file and when we hit Thursday I was getting a bit nervous knowing we had to finalize it for sure by Friday.  So, after a few more edits back and forth the FINAL proof came back by mid-morning on Friday.  That was it!  It was perfect!  "Approved!  Send it to the printers!"  Finally!  The words I had been waiting to say for so long.  And, I'm completely thrilled with the cover!  It came out as I had hoped.  I wasn't sure if they'd be able to pull it off or not and I'm not even sure they thought they could do it.  But, it really means a lot to me and I'm sooo excited for you all to see it! 

However, now my anxiety about the printers actually meeting my deadline ensues for the next 2-3 weeks.  Yikes!  Every morning I can feel my heart racing...not only that the printers can meet my deadline (so please pray about that), but about all the things I need to do in the meantime....finish my website, getting my PR kit created, scheduling a book launch party, scheduling book signings, setting up print (magazine) interviews, working through all the logistics of actually selling my book, and all the marketing and promotional activities for the book.  Just a few things on my to-do list!

But, it's a fun and new adventure for me, so I hope I can continue to enjoy the process and just follow the path God has set before me with grace, joy and optimism!  As I've been writing this blog over the past several months and talked about my publishing journey, I've just taken each step as it came but not fully appreciating the accomplishment of it all...and I still haven't.  It's kind of been just another project I've been working on, but it's a project that will shortly be exposed to the world!  What?!  It's obviously the biggest thing I've ever done in my life to-date and although it's exciting it's also a little scary.  And, I suppose anything new and worthwhile is but I definitely never dreamed this reality for myself.  I never set out to be an author....but, here it is...I'm an author.  Again, reality hasn't totally set in and I don't think it will until I'm holding MY book in my hands.  And even then I think it might take me awhile to truly believe it and appreciate it.  So, thanks for all your good wishes throughout this process and in the future.  I really appreciate your support and hope you realize an unknown dream in your life!  Blessings for your week ahead!  (More about my 1st book signing in Wed's blog posting.)